Episode 19

Narcissism 101: What It Actually Is & Why You Keep Attracting It | Phoenix Gould

Before you can heal from narcissistic abuse, you have to understand what you're actually dealing with.

Phoenix Gould breaks down the fundamentals — what narcissism is, what it isn't, the spectrum from traits to full disorder, and why so many people don't recognize it until they're already in deep.

This is the introduction most people wish they'd had before the relationship.

People ask me, what’s the #1 thing you did to heal from endometriosis, or what made the most impact?

And I tell them: The thing that accelerated my healing faster than anything else was facing the truth about my relationships & going no contact with the narcissists in my family & in my life.

This was the very critical tip of the iceberg, so if you’d like to hear more, this episode is for you!

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Today we are chatting with CTI and ICF-certified professional personal coach, Phoenix Gould.

Phoenix is helping both women and men to take back their power by dealing with and healing from the narcissist. She is helping those stuck in a trauma bond to finally be free.

Phoenix creates learning from everything. She has a gift for finding the essence of what is keeping people from living their vision, and intuitively guides her clients to deeply experience who they are at the core. For clients willing to take this deep dive, it is a transformative encounter from which the next step to achieve their goal becomes clear. Phoenix has no fear of the darkest, most challenging places a client may need to explore to find their way forward.

In her spare time, she loves to travel the world, albeit with questionable navigation skills. She is equally terrified and fascinated with those challenges which stretch her out of her comfort zone. There is nothing that makes her feel more ecstatic or alive than overcoming those fears. She will never say “no” to dancing the Tango Argentino (nor any other dance for that matter). Phoenix lives in the middle of nowhere, where she can be found sitting with trees and walking the fields, or writing her book “Sacred Housekeeping”.

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✅CHAPTERS

00:00 Intro

08:15 How Pheonix Faced Her Shit

10:59 Emotional Bootcamp

14:36 The narcissist's self-loathing

17:37 How to deal with narcissist's

27:05 The dance of the codependent & narcissist

32:40 Mushrooms + plant medicine for healing from narcissistic abuse

40:58 Biohacking with Art

About the Podcast

Your pain is not a design flaw.

Your body is not broken. And you were never meant to white-knuckle your way through a life that doesn't fit.

I'm Meredith Ochoa — ANOTHER F#%ING ARTIST. After 17 years of endometriosis, surgical failures, and being told my pain was psychological, I stopped outsourcing my healing and went in. I healed myself. I turned the journey into art. And I built this show to introduce you to every expert, practice, and buried truth that helped me get there.

Face Your Shit, Heal Yourself is a movement + podcast.

We cover chronic pain, hormonal health, endometriosis, autoimmune disease, trauma, cycle syncing, functional medicine, Reiki, Ayurveda, sacred sexuality, Taoist healing, psilocybin, and everything else the mainstream medical system doesn't want on your radar.

The only way out is through. This is how.

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Where art, truth, and healing collide.

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Meredith Ochoa

Meredith Ochoa is ANOTHER F#%ING ARTIST—a former ballerina turned mixed media artist, author, photographer, and generational cycle-breaker who turned 17 years of excruciating endometriosis into a revolutionary body of healing artwork.

Her journey started in the shadows—recovering from an eating disorder, building pinhole cameras by hand, and falling in love with the alchemy of the darkroom. When digital photography took over, she challenged the movement by turning a scanner into a large-format camera—flattening depth to make the subject the negative. This integration of old‑world photography principles with new‑world tech became her signature technique, and the way she started revealing the stories our bodies keep.

But it wasn’t until she experienced a series of near-death menstrual experiences that the real unraveling began. After years of being dismissed by doctors, pumped with medications, hormones, and told “it’s all in your head,” Meredith took her healing into her own hands—she studied the infradian rhythm, dismantled medical lies, and healed herself of a disease the system said was incurable.

That liberation sparked Every Phase—a 13‑year art project (2021‑2033) creating a piece for every hormonal phase—Follicular, Ovulatory, Luteal & Menstrual.
The series is a moving blueprint for anyone learning to alchemize biology into fuel and biohack with art, whether their battle is endo or a heartbreak no scan can see.

Her work wages a visual war on medical gaslighting, inviting viewers to face their own contradictions: shadow and light, pain and power. Each piece is a mirror—and a key—for anyone told “it’s all in your head.”

Why does she make art?
Because images can slip past the gatekeepers of logic and land directly in the bloodstream.
Because authenticity is the first medicine.
Because living a lie almost killed her—and creation keeps her honest.
Because pain is power waiting to be translated, if you’re willing to face your shit.